i met 2 idiot who dun knw how to tell a liar....
now i knw i am the supid one who trust them so much after my fall but end up... haiz...

ROX HAVE NO FRIENDS.... ROX NOT GONNA B FRIENDLY
ROX HATE HERSELF BEEN SILLY N TRUST PPLE EASILY!!!!
I HATE EVERYONE IN MY LIFE!!!!!!

should i go back to him???

but i dun see any nid to go back....
pls tell mi not to go back again!!!!!

i tear for him again....
haiz.... i romise myself i will nv tear for him again... haiz....

i miss u....

there is someone in my mind...
but i knw that we will nv get happen... becos it getting more n more obvious he having a next target....

failure in my life...
no care
no love
no concern

is like nobody is in my life...
im sick juz nid someone slping beside mi n hug mi or put mi in the slp~
haiz....
who can understand, the feeling of someone stealing ur man or stuff~ haiz... regreted to asking more pple~

u make mi fall in love, at this moment...
but....
haiz....

after changing a brand new mi... i realise
-short-temper
-petty
-regularly shouting n scold bad words
-talk back without using brain

juz wan to b a bad gal... =/
i nid a man who can dote on mi like a sister or a gf... =/

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ytd went to work in the morning... after work took MRT to school... feeling tired...
but i still able to make it to class... was discussing with my classmate after go home come out for movie n supper at nite... then after class head HOME straight as my relative frm KL came to visit us... so reach home... then drive to taman jurong n eat dinner with my relative...
dinner i ate very less... becos i dun feel like eat...
so reach home... feeling F tired... n realise i hv fever... so tab 2 panadol... be4 hand i told joe to fetch mi as i am tired n unable to drive as i hv eat panadol... so after msg him i went to rest awhile... n it happen that my phone hv no reception.... so joe,MC, jessie n mingli keep sms mi n msg... everyone was wondering wat had happen to mi.. n can see they r worried too... so how i manage to wake up...?
my mum was at the door shouting my name as she forget to bring hse key with her... so i woke up open the door n i realise the time was 11pm so i change then rush down to cathay n watch movie... hahaha luckily movie start at 11.55pm hahaha =)
then once i reach everyone was liek bullying mi la... ESPECIALLY ONG MING CONG & JESSIE!!!! use book to whack my head n ask mi NOT TO SLP!!!!! >.< ANGRY!!!!!

ok for now i got to go back work...
sunday also i work... sian!

ytd i went to hv a hair n decided to start a brand new me...

but today i went to WCP alone... n i fail n think of him again....
i always think that i will nv get a good guys in my life... n i also think that guys will always play on me or dump mi at a side....
the pain i go thru nobody knws.... i was hoping that i hv nv start anything with him b4 n not even knowing him!!!!!

my life n everything all i do will go thru by him... but now i learn the word "LONELY"....
i always think that other than family love... i also nid a guy to love me.... but is hard... the pain, sorrow n saddness... always left in my heart... the scar n the heart broken will nv b ease....

i thought i can b happy but overall....im SAD... i really wish he care, love n concern abt everything... but i knw is not going to b happen again....
he ask mi back.... but i avoid... becos i dun wan to b in the drop into the deep well again without anyone rescue mi... now i found my way but im still sad.... haiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wat i wan????????????? haiix.... he make mi feel the pain that he is suffering now!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='(

why does good guys always hv something funny to do?
why does all guys r a beast?

i juz dun understand why pple getting married soon will always come to mi.... im sick n tired of this....
i feel like a fool...

to b honest i laugh at work i laugh in sch but i cry everyday once i reach home...
everyday thinking why i cant find a real man to love mi... i got feeling for him but thinking that is alrdy a wrong movement yet i still wanna go... when it gonna stop all tis nonsense....

my decision is i might go back to him.... as i dun find any real love =(

frm day 1 till now....

all the memories in my mind cant b wash off....
i miss him....
really miss him... hoping for him to come back...
but if after patch up things confirm will repeat again!

HAIZ... im moody... my every movement is so sux... haiz!
hate myself...

rOxana
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